Inventory

Today, i take an inventory of my life.This kind of thing should be done more often, only that its difficult to find time to be alone with yourself.Last Sunday i went out for a drink(at a cafe) with some Form 5 friends who i'm still close to, and Sin-lin was moaning that we're already 22, so fast.Hence, this inventory. Also lately,because of my work at the hospital lab, I've developed a severe allergic reaction to dunno-what, causing acute dizziness, sneezing, weakness, and chest pain.It's been going on for 6 weeks.I try not to worry, i've been to see 4 doctors and 1 specialist physician, and none can detect anything.So, i'm here hoping it's really nothing, but I can't help being scared. I think the fear is the strongest symptom so far. All sorts of thoughts can creep in when you're fearful.You know, like... what if i have cancer,etc.etc.
Also, I tend to get sentimental when i'm sick.Hence this inventory;
Current good things in life(no particular order)-
-Jesus, who is always there for me,never forgets me, never lets me down.
-1 mum & 1 Younger brother ,Sam
Wonderful friends from school-time, Su Bing, Sin lin , Steph. Hwei hsien,Sook Fun,Adeline, Kwee Hoon.
-Close knit friends in varsity- Caroline, Akmal, emma, hani, Dayah,Asilah.
-All My IK friends
-Jo and Eunice
-My books
-Enough money to study in Uni
-Housemates who treat me like Family
-Good grades
-A Course that i enjoy
-A car that runs
-TV set in my room
-and many others

Things not so good:
-Losing my Dad
-My Form 6 years
-One horrid experience with a horrid 'friend' in first year of Uni.( i did learn to be more careful choosing friends, so i dunno whether this counts as good or bad)

So, you see, or rather, I see, that the Good in life far outweighs the bad.Why don't you try doing one today?

Note: Steph, do you remember Jonathan Brandis? we used to go ga-ga over him and other cute teen stars when we were in Standard 6? Remember Casper, 3 ninjas kickback, seventeen magazines and sweet valley novels littering the classroom? remember Ms Tan and Embroidery?
Are you still keeping yours?
Today I found out online that Jonathan Brandis comitted suicide in Nov 2003. There goes our childhood memories.

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